Walking Backwards

The days pass by and the nights are nearer
The skies are grey but they're so much clearer
Everything has a meaning and everyone knows
The highs are there but matter less than the lows
The smiles exist but less bright than the tears
Hope's in the heart but in the mind there's fear
That yesterday is gone and will never come again
That tomorrow holds tougher days and weaker men
With every hour passing there's a dream dying
With every minute wasted there's a chance flying
To create a better world and a good person
To fulfill a fantasy or reach an ambition
To be everything one can and all could aspire
A life full of hope and guided by untainted desire
As the path of existence grows narrower everyday
And it starts making sense the longing to pray
For time keeps moving and changing everything
Preparing us for what comes after our living

THE WRONG SIDE OF LIFE

When the element of surprise becomes just too normal
When your wildest dream makes you feel only mortal
When the people you love turn into mere characters
In a silent play with no story, no tears, and no laughter
When your whole life is happening in a one-way mirror
Where the similarities of good and evil are clearer
Than the important things in life that once were
And the heart that was once filled with love and care
Now knows nothing but the sweet satisfaction of hate
Not even surprised at the cruelty that time can create
When life becomes just the very next step taken
Into the new born misery that will forever forsaken
The innocent mind that long ago thought it knew it all
Had the knowledge of how to overcome the fall
But fall it did and harder than you ever expected
The plan, once proud of, now no longer respected
When sleep becomes an illusion, not even an option
And your fantasies are another thing put up for adoption
When mornings become darker than the blackest night
Building up that constant urge to pick up a fight
With yourself, with the world, with anyone besides
That ugly face in the mirror that's always trying to hide
Behind the worst of your fears and the world you hate
Taking away all that you've ever loved and the one fate
You believed you deserved that last day you cried
That day when you rolled to the wrong side of life and died

Invisible

Do you know what it's like to have a dream,
And see that dream shatter in your face?
Do you know what it's like to have hope,
And watch as it vanishes in your hardest days?
Do you know what it's like to have love,
And feel it backstabbing you when you need it most?
Do you know what it's like to lose that love?
You're just helpless; you know how much pain it costs?
Do you know what it's like to have a world?
A world you built with everything you had
With every bit of might and feeling and soul
If a dust was taken from it, wouldn't you feel sad?
What if that world was utterly destroyed to pieces?
Wouldn't you feel so empty inside, just stoned?
Wouldn't you feel your life has just been taken away,
And you have lost everything you ever owned?
What would you do if you lacked the will to rebuild,
If you lost the passion of dreaming up a new place?
What would you do if you just needed hope to begin,
And hope is a distant stranger these days?
What if love was the only cure, the only answer?
What if love was the only way to get back your dream?
And your love is just a memory of the past,
Do you know what it's like to be invisible, or to seem?

Hours That Feel Like Days

Sitting here all alone, just the sound of my breathing
For hours that feel like days, staring at the ceiling
Thinking of the past, thinking of what I've left behind
Remembering how easy everything was, but how blind
I had been to leave all I knew and loved to come
To this unknown place, to its seducing beat and hum
In this other world, full of different shades and colors
Hiding its true realities, its own pains and troubles
Now lonliness seems my only friend, and I yearn
For the sincere happiness I feel in my memories to return
I had wanted what I didn't have, but the price I payed
Lost everything, lost myself, but wondering what I gained
As I sit here by myself, my mind clouded by so much to do
But unable to do anything, unable to see this life through

What Happens

what happens when you wake up one day

and realise you've been dead for some time

what do you do when it suddenly hits you

that its been a while you havent been fine

you havent been breathing since that day

when you were running and suddenly stopped

your life kept moving but your mind didn't

you felt your whole body being dropped

but you didnt want to believe what you felt

and you didnt want to believe that youve lost

was it yourself or the world or simply everything

or was it that you didnt know what it cost

to run after your life while its being lived

and pretend to smile while you cant breath

because youre not really there and you know

the more you wait the harder it will be to leave

but you know you're wrong and it hurts

but you cant leave the truth and pain behind

because its all that you know from this world

denial has left you too weak and blind

do you know what happens if you gave up

if you changed and let yourself drop to the unknown

maybe its better maybe its good maybe its worse

than the unreal life you live that's made of stone

what happens if you wake up one day

and realised that you're breathing again

would hope kill you or even worse

would you be ready to drop hard again