Sad Song

I want to feel fragile
I want to feel pain
I want to close my eyes
And feel alive again
I want to listen to a sad song
Over and over for hours
Feel the song touching my bones
Draining me like dead flowers
Making my heart pound
Like it hasnt in years
Reminding me of worse days
Of old insecurities and fear
Of people I havent seen
Of places I so hated
Now seem so ordinary
Just so over-rated
My feet up and my head down
The song plays on and on
Time of no importance
The present is gone
The lyrics are about me
About a past so far
I want to feel the suffering
I yearn to be a part
But I am and it hurts
So much more than I know
The lyrics tell the story
I have been repressing it so
My heart normally beating
No love to make it stop
No point of feeling down
There's nothing to cheer me up

DEATH OF THE WORLD

No one’s what they’re supposed to be
It’s all out there, but we refuse to see
The reality being twisted around
The fake scenes and the weird sounds
Of a life less ordinary than we were told
Guided by all that’s glitter and gold
The heart is dead, and no one’s winning
Even the world is no longer spinning
Yesterday seems like a long time ago
The days are so fast but the minutes slow
People walking around seeming a bit lost
Destroying everything, with no cost
Deceiving themselves and everyone
Sucking out all the happiness and fun
From the life that now seems hollow
So pointless and so difficult to swallow
Sometimes it’s so hard to understand
How they can live and just pretend
That it’s all normal and real
Living with black hearts that always heal
No conscience and no reason to cry
Faceless men who live without asking why
A blind world leading to a misguided end
Shallow love and no reason for a friend