Sad Song

I want to feel fragile
I want to feel pain
I want to close my eyes
And feel alive again
I want to listen to a sad song
Over and over for hours
Feel the song touching my bones
Draining me like dead flowers
Making my heart pound
Like it hasnt in years
Reminding me of worse days
Of old insecurities and fear
Of people I havent seen
Of places I so hated
Now seem so ordinary
Just so over-rated
My feet up and my head down
The song plays on and on
Time of no importance
The present is gone
The lyrics are about me
About a past so far
I want to feel the suffering
I yearn to be a part
But I am and it hurts
So much more than I know
The lyrics tell the story
I have been repressing it so
My heart normally beating
No love to make it stop
No point of feeling down
There's nothing to cheer me up