Hours That Feel Like Days

Sitting here all alone, just the sound of my breathing
For hours that feel like days, staring at the ceiling
Thinking of the past, thinking of what I've left behind
Remembering how easy everything was, but how blind
I had been to leave all I knew and loved to come
To this unknown place, to its seducing beat and hum
In this other world, full of different shades and colors
Hiding its true realities, its own pains and troubles
Now lonliness seems my only friend, and I yearn
For the sincere happiness I feel in my memories to return
I had wanted what I didn't have, but the price I payed
Lost everything, lost myself, but wondering what I gained
As I sit here by myself, my mind clouded by so much to do
But unable to do anything, unable to see this life through